Something just hit me a few minutes ago.
I was sitting at work and realized that if Adam and I had not broken up, today would have been our one year anniversary.
It a year ago tonight that I met him at a speed dating event. We were the only match that came out of the evening''s festivities.
That match lasted a little over five months.
I can remember walking into that room, pretty much scared to death. I knew the organizer and one of the girls helping with refreshments, but that was it. I remember kinda talking to Adam beforehand and of course, during the event. Little did I know that he would become such a big part of my life, both in happiness and not-so-happiness.
There were some great times, but also some not great ones when we were together. (In case you want to refresh yourself, here is the post where I talked about meeting and starting to date him and here is the post where I discussed breaking up with him.)
I learned a lot about him, dating and most importantly myself during our time together.
The best part is that I learned a ton about myself afterward. Being the one who breaks up with somebody for the first time in your life will really do that to you. I had a mix of emotions like "did I do the right thing" and "what if he is the one" all through the days afterward. I knew it was right, but it felt absolutely wrong.
Kenny Rogers was right.. you really do have to know when to hold 'em and know when fold 'em and know when to walk away.
I did the right thing by walking away, but dang.. it hurt. A lot. A ton more than I thought it would. I was a bit off kilter for a while, but knew that it was for the best.
It has made me such a stronger person, though. You take away something from every person you meet and some extra strength came to me from the ending of that relationship. There was a ton of other stuff that I took away (like watching out for front rows of IMAX Star Trek movies), but this was the biggie.
He was a big part of my life for that time. Unfortunately, he is not currently in my life.
He is currently dating somebody else who I hear is a really good guy. I wish them the absolute best things and hope that they are together for a long time.
I do miss him, though. I miss his smile, his stupid attempts at jokes and his friendship.